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Age - 42; Married to Mark for 15 years; Mother to Jacob (13 yrs) and Sadie (10 yrs); Teacher of 18-21 first graders; My goal is to use this blog as a diary to help me stay focused and motiviated to lose 40 pounds! My starting weight is 172 - I am going to watch my calorie intake and increase my physical activity! Feel Free to Cheer Me On! Dates and Weights: 7-18-11 = 167.9, 7-26-11 = 168.6
Showing posts with label ET raises her ugly head. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ET raises her ugly head. Show all posts

Monday, July 11, 2011

Bloated but holding!

Ok...I weighed in last night after doing the treadmill and other stuff that I would put in the "I better be getting something out of this!" box.  I weighted 172.3.  Are you kidding me...I was pretty discouraged.  I mean really that is what I weighted before I started counting calories and working out.  The evil inner voice (I am going to call her my evil twin ) kicked in..."Why bother?-You've learned how to be fat, you are good at it - You can eat at buffets and not get full!  What are you doing trying to lose weight?- You are not so good at that.  What if you fail?  Why not stay fat and stick with something you know and you are good at!"  Really, I heard that.  I even felt this fear of failure pushing at me!  WOW! Well I made it through the night amazed that I had grown the Evil Twin in my own head---What a Bitch!  I was discouraged, but I did not feed it, or stuff it with FOOD. 

This morning I woke up and I had started!!!!  Duh!  I am moving the needle - because this is my big fat bloated time!---So take that  Bitch!!!  OK I can't let my kids read this!!!

Anyway - I made it another day and clocked another Fat Fusion class - Take that Evil Twin  (ET).  I gotta get rid of her!  Thanks for the support!