Ok...I weighed in last night after doing the treadmill and other stuff that I would put in the "I better be getting something out of this!" box. I weighted 172.3. Are you kidding me...I was pretty discouraged. I mean really that is what I weighted before I started counting calories and working out. The evil inner voice (I am going to call her my evil twin ) kicked in..."Why bother?-You've learned how to be fat, you are good at it - You can eat at buffets and not get full! What are you doing trying to lose weight?- You are not so good at that. What if you fail? Why not stay fat and stick with something you know and you are good at!" Really, I heard that. I even felt this fear of failure pushing at me! WOW! Well I made it through the night amazed that I had grown the Evil Twin in my own head---What a Bitch! I was discouraged, but I did not feed it, or stuff it with FOOD.
This morning I woke up and I had started!!!! Duh! I am moving the needle - because this is my big fat bloated time!---So take that Bitch!!! OK I can't let my kids read this!!!
Anyway - I made it another day and clocked another Fat Fusion class - Take that Evil Twin (ET). I gotta get rid of her! Thanks for the support!
About Me
- Shorty Losin Forty
- Age - 42; Married to Mark for 15 years; Mother to Jacob (13 yrs) and Sadie (10 yrs); Teacher of 18-21 first graders; My goal is to use this blog as a diary to help me stay focused and motiviated to lose 40 pounds! My starting weight is 172 - I am going to watch my calorie intake and increase my physical activity! Feel Free to Cheer Me On! Dates and Weights: 7-18-11 = 167.9, 7-26-11 = 168.6
Remember this is a lifetime change. I have that Evil Twin in my head too. She gets quieter as time goes on. Keep on doing what you're doing and you'll see results.
ReplyDeleteHi there! I found your blog through Doctor F. She's awesome. Happy Blog-Warming and good luck to you as you pursue your goals! You've got a great community here to support you. Best of luck to you!!
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